I’m too sad to watch TV, laugh, read, listen to music, play bass or even sleep. I hate that I’ve let you down. It makes my stomach lurch that you don’t even want to see me. I just have a constant ache in my body and have done for the last few days. I havent even showered in two days. The only drive i seem to have to actually do anything is to fix things and make them better. I hope youre sleeping alright. I miss everything about you.
It’s the moment of truth and the moment to lie. The moment to live and the moment to die. The moment to fight.
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